Five Minute Friday – Here

It’s FIVE MINUTE FRIDAY. Just write for five minutes with no changes, corrections, etc and link to lisajobaker.com

Unloading the dishwasher thinking about things I really would prefer not to think about but then it turned into a conversation with God. Maybe more like a whining to God but it brought me to the point of saying, “I don’t have any more answers for anything.” Please take me over Lord completely.” Why do I not let myself surrender totally? I think I do each time I get those little revelations about things I’m grappling with and holding onto but why do I  go to that land of regret– can’t live there because it’s too hard to exist. That is when I want to say “I abide in you and you abide in me.” Being someone who wants EVERYONE to be happy I find myself languishing in their pain. Must be from growing up with an ill Mother. I always felt like her caretaker and it was my responsibility to make sure things ran smooth for her. I wasn’t important but I was needed. Funny way to think of yourself but not a real happy way to think of yourself.

About Charmaine

I am a Christian woman seeking to truly "know" God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit. I love the Word of God and it's life changing power. I like reading, writing, and amateur gardening. My passion is working in women's ministry with emphasis on Bible Study. I believe discipleship is very important in our transformation process to become more Christlike.
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4 Responses to Five Minute Friday – Here

  1. Jan Cox says:

    Linking in from Five-Minute Fridays. Welcome to the blogging world. Glad you are HERE. Abiding with Jesus is definitely living in the here. May you find peace, strength and joy in the moment of now.
    Blessings,
    Jan

  2. Be encouraged! As you discover the roots of your emotions you will learn to enjoy the Here God has blessed you with which sounds like what you are doing.

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