One of my favorite scriptures is Psalm 90:12 which says: “Teach us how short our lives really are so that we may be wise” or in some translations it says, “Teach us to number our days so we may have a heart of wisdom.” I remember when my life had become almost unbearable. On the outside I looked like I had it altogether but on the inside I felt like I was dying moment by moment. There were devastating things in my life that happened and being one of those who always thought I could fix things and make them right so everyone could live happily ever after could not seem to be able to do it this time no matter what. I began to question my very own existence and reason for being here on earth. When I came to the end of my road I began to turn to God for an answer. Isn’t that the way we usually are? Something about that encourages me though because no matter how much people might say they don’t need God why is it so many times we turn to him when we reach the end of our ropes? Is it maybe because we are actually spirits who live in a body and have a soul, or as some say heavenly beings having an earthly experience? I don’t know but I truly believe that innately we know we belong to God.
Well, back to the end of my ropes. As I began to search out God and my spirituality I ended up at a Wednesday night service where the pastor read Psalm 90:12. I will never forget that evening. As I sat there in that pew aching with all that I had in me I heard those words, “Teach us (me) to number our days that we may have a heart of wisdom.” Something within my spirit perked up at that very moment and I said to myself, “Lord I know that my days are numbered and I haven’t always been wise with them but from this day forward that is what I desire.” Thus began this journey I have been on now for the last fifteen years.
The Bible says that the fear of the Lord (reverence for Him) is the beginning of wisdom. That night as I was looking back over my life and how in many ways I had mishandled it I was wishing that someone had taught me the importance of numbering my days when I was much younger. Would I have listened? Do we all think we are going to live forever when we are young and have lots of time to get it right? Probably so. I think the key point in this is that if we don’t reverence the Lord our chances of being wise are diminished by the fact that we aren’t seeking Him for guidance. Also the heart is what God is concerned with not our minds. Do you notice that it says a “heart” of wisdom and not a “mind” of wisdom. The Bible says that if we believe in our “heart” and confess with our mouth Jesus Christ we will be saved. Do you notice it doesn’t say if we believe in our “mind”? God looks upon our hearts in all matters pertaining to us. We could go over scripture after scripture that speaks about our heart but that is for another day’s blog. For now I will continue to meditate and keep Psalm 90:12 always at the forefront of my life.
“Lord, I thank you that your word does not return void and that you knew what I needed at the minute I needed it. As I continue to seek you, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit to reveal how I can walk in wisdom daily I will reverence you because the reverence of you is the beginning of wisdom.” Amen