Ever since I was a child everyone knew I had a soft heart.  I cried when I saw sad things on TV, I wanted to kiss and hold every baby I saw, and I loved animals dearly.  As a matter of fact I’m still like that in the aforementioned things. But what I desire more than a soft heart is an undivided heart for my Lord.  I probably disappoint more than not in this area not because I want to but I think there might still be little tiny recesses in my heart that I still have either not allowed him to heal or that I might still be rebellious about. It does not please me to hear that about myself from myself  but the first step to releasing it to Him is admitting it.  We tend to have compartments in our heart. We may give one part of our heart to our husband, one part to our children, one part to our job (I always used to say that I put my whole heart into my job.Ouch!) None of these things are bad but do they keep us from having an undivided heart for the Lord? Most likely so.  I have been in a state of brokenness over the last several weeks.  Oh no, don’t feel sorry for me. Rejoice with me because in my brokenness I have realized my need for an undivided heart even more.  I want to praise my Lord with my “whole” heart–not just a piece of it.  It is when I praise Him with a “whole” heart that I become whole and complete in Him and am able to be better used by Him.  

Psalm 86:11-13 (New International Version)

 ¹¹ Teach me your way, O LORD,
       and I will walk in your truth;
       give me an undivided heart,
       that I may fear your name.

 ¹² I will praise you, O Lord my God, with all my heart;
       I will glorify your name forever.

 ¹³ For great is your love toward me;
       you have delivered me from the depths of the grave.

Lord, I just want to praise you at this moment with my whole heart–not a divided heart Lord.  May I be a sweet fragrance to you Lord and it is in this brokenness Lord that I ask for the removal of pain in my mind, body, and soul. In the name of Jesus, the name above all names.  Amen