I heard someone who was talking about something that Beth Moore said that went something like “out of wrestling with God comes blessing”. As I’ve pondered on this the past several days out of my spirit came “while you’ve been wrestling with God, he’s been wooing you”. Wow. These last years have been a little rough for me and if you want to know why you can go back to the beginning of my blog and read about it but I have turned a corner these past few weeks on this “Road Back”. Yes, I have been wrestling with God. For me who once was very involved in ministry and teaching the Word I had lost my way and my place along the way through heartbreak, disillusionment, a still un-saved husband, and chronic physical pain and surgery of the spine. I’ve been fighting my way back but it seemed every time I took a step forward I took two back. Some things were out of my control, like losing my job after 29 years due to my physical limitations, but some things were still in my control; however, I had relinquished them perhaps to the enemy. I was exhausted! So when the Lord spoke to me about my wrestling him I knew exactly what He was talking about. While I was trying to figure out why all the hurt physically and spiritually He was wooing me back and it’s been like a rebirth. I remember how blue the sky was right after my salvation at age 42 and how beautiful the words of Christian contemporary music was to me. I am back there. I am on The Road Back and out of my wrestling I am being blessed.
“Thank you Lord God for continuing to woo me even though I was wrestling with you at the same time. I praise you Lord for having your daughter in your hand and setting her feet back on the path to you.”
For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you. Isaiah 41:13