I haven’t written anything for quite awhile. It seemed no matter how I tried to get to this blog all kinds of things were getting in the way. Recently I was given some medicine that interfered with some other medicine I was taking and I was feeling like a zombie. Took me a week or so to realize that that was the problem. I stopped taking it about four days ago and I say in a humorous way I am beginning to feel more like my old zombie state. Anyway it’s good to be writing some thoughts down again about this journey I am on.
I came across an interesting follow on Twitter called Get Up With God. They have a webpage also but I am not saying this to endorse someone’s webpage even though I feel blessed to have come across it. But as I have tried to come out of this fog the last several days I kept asking myself why I can’t seem to get my life balanced and disciplined since I haven’t been working due to spine problems these last several years and I heard in my spirit, “Get up With God”. I had one of those light bulb moments as they say. I began to realize that when I was working I would listen to tapes in my car (yes, I said tapes–have a CD player in my new car–but no MP3) on the way to work. They would be sermons from my Pastor’s last sermon or scripture tapes, or something to get my day started on the right foot. You would think that not working I would do it even more but it hasn’t seemed to be that way and I’ve asked the Lord’s forgiveness for this. You see after working for 34 years of my life I had always been disciplined even before my salvation. With working 40 hour weeks it seemed I still could accomplish much with the small amount of time left over. Now I get up and get distracted with putting some clothes in the dryer, going out to water flowers, taking the dog out, or turning my computer on and checking many things it seems like blogs, email, Twitter, Facebook, book reviews, etc., etc. While I follow a lot of Christian blogs and web pages it hit me today that I am not getting up with God. I am not taking the time to spend with him before I acknowledge anything–before I get into the things of the day. I can make all the excuses I want but the fact is that there is no excuse. Somewhere along the line I have gotten out of balance and undisciplined in the things of God. Yes, I have had some disappointment and disillusionment with the church but that has nothing to do with my one on one relationship with God and that is what this road back is all about for me. I have felt a bit grieved within my spirit as of late and I know it’s quite evident that this is why. If I’m not taking the time to pray and meditate on His word first thing in the morning I can’t be balanced the rest of the day because he is my Source. If I wait to do this at the end of the day when my body is fatigued with pain and tired I will not be mentally or spiritually able to hear what He has for me and I so desire that with all my heart.
“Lord, I ask that you remove all distractions and help me to encourage myself to priortize the things in my life. I do want to get up with you Lord so that my life will once again be balanced and disciplined.”
In the morning, O Lord you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation. Psalm 5:3