Today in purchasing the items I need for a medical test I have been putting off for years, I realized that I have become rather wimpy. Not just wimpy but fearful. I know I need this test but I have allowed all kinds of things to be manufactured in my mind about why I shouldn’t– like what if the instruments aren’t sterile, what if they give too much sedation, what if they find something I don’t want to know about, let alone the fact that I am probably one of the most modest people there is on earth thanks to my parents who wouldn’t discuss anything and I mean anything that had to do with our bodies with us.
Many say that fear is a sin because you can’t be in faith and fear at the same time. But why is that many of us are? That is something that I ponder over and over all the time. The only thing I’ve been able to come up with is that might increase faith over fear and hopefully eliminating fear altogether is “Trust.” I have to trust God in all things. If I believe that I am in His hands (which I do), I have to trust Him this Thursday when I walk in that room to have that “dreaded” test and no matter what the results, good or bad, I am still to trust Him. Easier said than done? Obviously in this situation for me it is, but as of this moment I determine to turn this over to Him. I don’t want to be a fearful, wimpy Christian. I want to walk strongly “in faith” and not in fear.
For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline. 2 Timothy 1:7
“Lord, I ask that my fear be replaced with faith through trust.” Amen